Friday, 13 November 2015

Be kind to YOU


Yesterday wasn't a good one for me and I found myself feeling really frustrated with people in general. So during my lunch hour when I had very little time and very many errands to run, I decided to be inconsiderate. I parked badly, I didn't pay my car guard, I hooted at the assholes who don't know how to drive, I didn't let anyone into my lane and I didn't do my usual, "Hi, how are you?" routine with people behind the tills. When I came home and was finally able to stop and think, I felt terrible. This isn't the sort of person that I am, but for once, just once, I wanted to be the person who didn't care about the people I encountered - because, more often than not, that's the way that others treat me. I was tired of being a pushover, taken for granted and generally treated badly... but that didn't mask the guilt and shame that I felt when I thought back on the day's events.

This morning when I found out that today is World Kindness Day, I felt even worse. Here I was being a total bitch to people because I was having a bad day - not cool. The more I thought about it, the guiltier I felt, until I was plummeted into a dark hole of "I'm such a horrible person." But then I realised what I was doing: I wasn't being kind to myself.

We all make mistakes, we all have bad days, we all act in ways that we wish we hadn't and say things that we regret, but I think that it's important to give yourself a break. Learn from those times and grow as a person instead of chastising yourself. Next time you think a mean though about yourself, stop and think 'Would I ever speak this way about somebody else?' More often than not, the answer is "Of course not, that's so mean!" – so why are we so cruel to ourselves? If you don't love yourself first, no one else will - remember that.